Been coughing alot nowadays...
fainting every now and then...
then after i woke up...
i'd forget abt everything...
haiz...
i've had enuff of coughing out blood...
i just wanna die...
moi heart hurts...
but does anyone know tt?
moi heart is all over the place...
smashed...
shattered...
torn...
tattered...
thrown...
unwanted...
alone...
the darkness tt surrounds me is not lightening...
i have had ennuff of those tranquillisers, relaxants and anti-depressants...
i'd rather die...
someone...
please...
just kill me...
i dun wanna suffer in this world anymore...
i have had enuff of guys saying tt they wanna take care of me...
but in the end...
it always turns out to be a hoax...
a big fat lie...
it looks like i simply can't trust anybody anymore...
Guys like Cash, Chester (Dj`Lei) and Wei Siong (Maki-), moi didi's, Byakuya...
I've had enuff!
I just wanna die...
i wanna get away from this world...
i wanna be protected from all these...
but...
there's not a safe place available...
i dun feel safe anywhere...
i feel like i am going insane anytime soon...
what am i gonna do...
help...
tatsukette kudasai~
hontou ni...
_~.:: <3 †Misha- <3 Alex ::.~_
>> titledat 12:15:00 pm__
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http://media.libsyn.com/media/mb/tmbs-060515-no_more_bird.mp3
mr brown pocast on citibank credit card (more birds more luck) commercial...
lolx...
_~.:: <3 †Misha- <3 Alex ::.~_
>> titledat 2:51:00 am__
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Haiz...
i dunno what to do le...
i dunno what to say le...
i feel that i am going insane any time soon...
there are things that i can't tell Maki face to face...
it reminds me of moi childhood...
haiz...
its like nowadays everything i do is wrong...
including showing concern to moi didi...
wth...
moi didi said that he wants to take care of me... he wants to be moi stead...
i replied him...
you seen me b4 right?
he replied i dun mind...
i asked him didi tell jie what happened to you?
he kept insisting that he wants to take care of me and not hurt me anymore...
but due to his msn nick...
i am concerned abt him...
he is depressed...
but i dunno what he is depressed about...
i just wanted to know about it...
that's all...
then Maki saw it then he say alot of thing which i dun remember already...
coz i relapsed right after...
i couldn't remember a single thing maki said...
moi mind went blank...
head hurts like hell...
I only remembered that i am god damn scared...
i dunno....
i dun wanna be alone again...
no
No
NO
NO!
T_T
ARGH!
i dunno why i feel so damn scared...
T_T
i feel damn scared about everything...
i dunno why...
i do things all by moiself...
until i get moiself damn tired then i rest...
haiz...
argh...
sometimes...
i really feel that i dun belong to this world...
really feel like dying...
_~.:: <3 †Misha- <3 Alex ::.~_
>> titledat 2:26:00 am__
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Yoz~ i shall unveil the looks of Byakuya aka Gerard the other guy that's after me? keke... >.<
we took this today at cineleisure... kaka...
_~.:: <3 †Misha- <3 Alex ::.~_
>> titledat 12:00:00 pm__
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